Never going to be .....wait for it.... a blogger :D

It has been like year and a half since last post. Blaah. Busy and stuff. Since that I have broken my ankle, came back to Finland, worked in child protection services for a bit, moved, wrote my thesis (what a pain), graduated from uni (yey), worked in a super cool and fancy restaurant and visited Scotland again.

I have come now in to a conclusion that life is a waiting game. Only thing that kinda matters is how you spent the time you are waiting. Now I just sent a job application to a place, I'm waiting to get a respond. I ordered planner and some clothes online, and now I am waiting to get them. I fell in like with a guy, and now I'm just waiting for him to see me.

Waiting is hard and I'm not so patient and I might miss use the time I have on stupid things like watching movies and playing games. I have seen more of my family lately and gone out with friends. Also serving at my church has been nice and maybe time well spent.
All the things I could do that I like, but just too lazy to do: read more Bible, paint, do cards, try to find a job maybe :D, just read in general, try to get to know new people and so on...
I could even travel somewhere, but noup.....too lazy.

Or maybe it is that if I stop waiting and just plan stuff and after planing, something better comes up and I have to miss out on that because I have planned something already? FOMO = fear of missing out. Never before I haven't really had this problem, too many options make the decision harder.
But in the end I know from the past that God has always come through and all the "goodest" endings on things has happened. Never have I ever lacked on anything and things have gone better than what I have planned myself.

Waiting is hard, but if you let it become fear then you do bad decisions.

So for the time I have free I try to read more and maybe do some artsy stuff, (Did 2 pairs of wool socks) cause that makes me happy :) And if you ask me out for a coffee (somewhere close) I have now time.

I donno when I am going to write here....soooooo... :D You just have to wait and see ;)

p.s. Ask me in a month if I have read any book, if not, just slap me. :D

Hyvää ystävänpäivää!

Inverness

[Hyvä = good, ystävä = friend, päivä = day]

That day again...at least in Finnish it is day for friends.  My plans for this day are usually, nothing. Today I have cleaned my room, done some laundry, tried to figure out what I am supposed to do on couple of courses and watched "The Office". Then probably in the evening I will read book called "The single issue" from Al Hsu (Because I am sooooo dramatic ;)

2 Blues

 I just hate this day (the couple loveydoweypart), and my goal is just to make myself feel worse than I actually feel...just because I can. (I'm very mature, I know) :P And how I hate when they say: "Some day someone will come when you least expect ". Well first of all then he will never come cause I never expect less, and I don't want someone I want the one. AND making things more difficult for myself, I'm not going to do anything about the whole situation.
So dear future husband if you are reading this....do something.

That was the rant, now done with it :) Year until next time.

Good things that has happened since last time.
I became an aunt for a very cute little girl! Best thing ever ^_^ Can't wait to meet her <3

There was this 30th anniversary Ceilidh at the church I go to and it was super fun! I just loved the dances (surprise) The band was amazing, my dance partner was great and food was tasty. I just loved it.
I have got to know some people here and they are cool :)
And I have started to draw/ pain a wee bit again.

But i think that might be all for now. I-m too lazy to write more :D
Here is some picks from last weeks.

Town House

And then there came bit snow.......not so happy about that..

And we also found James Fraser........not what we were thinking.

James Fraser..

Hyvää ystävänpäivää!  Thanks to all my friends who still are even tho I'm weird.

Love y'all <3

Sini

Scotland. (week 1)

Heya!

I haven't been writing in a while (again), but I have been thinking about writing.
I think that since last time I have moved, worked trough Christmas and new years, traveled and now been living in Inverness Scotland for wee (little) bit over a week.

My trip started 24th of January and my dad took me to the airport. The plane left late cause there was so much snow and something else that I don't know cause I was half asleep. We flew to Oslowere I had planned to visit centrum and say hi to some cool people, but cause the plane was late and snow was every where I thought it would be just easiest to stay at the airport and not be late from the next flight.
Next stop was Edinburgh. We were late again, but the flight went fast cause I ended up talking with a cool lass (girl) sitting next to me :D (Gratulerer med dagen! ;)) In the airport my friend was waiting for me and that was so good to see her again ^_^ We took my stuff to her home and went to see the city of Edinburgh. We ate Mexican food (of course) and then had some Freakyshakes for dessert. I saw castle and the city in it's night lighting.
Next morning on Thursday, I found my way to train station and traveled to Inverness. It was a sunny day and man across me wanted to give me some whisky (uisge-beatha) for taste of Scotland.
At the train station I was greeted by my host-dad. We came home and i met rest of the family (they are awesome). My room is just perfect <3
After my trip I was quite tired and I went to bed just to wake up on Friday morning to go to school.
We had some induction program. I found out there is 5 other students from Finland :D That was funny in a way. We went as teams around Inverness and did some tasks that were lot of fun just to get to know the city. In the evening I went to see a church I had been looking beforehand. People there were nice and welcomed me right away.

On Saturday evening we went to a Burns Ceilidh and I loved it! There was a live band playing and they told dances that I don't remember names of and there was also haggis pizza that we got to eat :D The dances were with a group and we were jumping and turning and swinging around. It was fun.
On Sunday I went to church and walked home from there. There is lot of nice looking houses here.
On Monday it was the first day of school. I had only 2 hours of it and then me and a friend of mine went for coffee and shopping + we found a pizza hut :D
Tuesday I had my first Video conference where the teacher is somewhere else...I didn't know how to use the system so I had to call help :D After that me and an other friend went for a coffee and around the city. In the evening I started to feel like feverish and rest of the week I have been more or less sick, On Wednesday evening I went to see a mountain movie festival movies with other exchange students. It was good and fun, but maybe a mistake in health wise :)

Now I have been reading school material and some books that I bought. (Yes mom I bought more books) And I hope that I'll be less flu-y at the end of this week to get back to school on Monday.

I don't have many photos or photos at all cause I like to enjoy the moment more than try to get my phone/camera out while taking it all in.

It is weird, but it feels like I have been here always and known people always, and it has just been a week and everything is new anyway.

But to these updates and feelings...
Hae guid ook en! (I tried to get that from a "Scots- English dictionary)

-Sini (#ontheroad)

It comes in 2s

Life in happening

2 years ago I got a message that I was accepted to my current school. It made me think if it was the right thing to do and if I really wanted to study after many years of work.

Now it is 2 years from the time when I first came to see this apartment with my friend.  I have lived here for 2 years and I have had 2 flatmates.

In January it comes 2 years since I started my school.  It has been interesting to learn things from my field and also learn things of myself.

Luckily I have gotten more that 2 friends during this time :D Great friends and I have been able to have fun, joke, cry, cause drama, be part of drama, sing after 10 years, meet some awesome kids that I will miss.

I say many times to people that I don't miss people. and I don't in a way. BUT I feel sad to leave people I love and not know when I'll see them again. [(I'm bad keeping contact) and as my friends know by now...I don't like people ;) I love them.]

2 days ago I got a message that I was accepted for exchange in Scotland. I started to think if it is really something I want to do....totally yeah! But it comes with changes.

In exactly 2 months I will start school in Inverness. Crazy!

I couldn't have planned my life this well.

I planned it differently, (18yo married, 25yo at least 3 kids, and so on) and well...it didn't go like that. AND in the end I am thankful for it. I know God knows best. When I chose to give my life to Him it has been an adventure. Not maybe easy not without tears, I have fought back and surrendered in the end.

I couldn't have even dreamed of all the things I have gotten into and countries I've visited and people I've met. And it just goes and continues.

God promised me 7 years ago that I will see mountains and seas, I will meet people from different nations and that has been true. Sometimes without even trying. :D

But yeah...I have to start packing soon. I have less than a month time before my work begins (that is a blessing as well! I don't take it for granted. As a student your budget isn't really overflowing, but never have I been in need)

In the end I want to add a link to a song that I have been listening to for few months now since I found it from Youtube.

Aaron Cole feat Toby Mac-  *Right on time*

And because it comes in 2s here is an other song too that I love :D

We are the Messengers - *Magnify*


-Sini

I am 30

WOW I need to really learn a new number. Writing 20 something was still ok, but three and zero...30.

I think this is again that kind of point when you (me) start to think back in life and think what have I done with my life. I had my first age crisis ten years ago when I turned 20 and my so called boyfriend had just left me before my birthday. I was thinking that  the ten years from 10 to 20 had gone so fast and that I haven't got anything done. And if the next ten years (20->30) would go as fast and I still wouldn't have got anything done. 

0-18 school
18-28 work, travel, work
28-30 school, travel, school
30- adventure

Well, now I'm at that point. 

I had my party already in end of August, when the weather was nice and I had more time to organise things. Today (16.11.2017) I slept long, watched youtube, went eat with my friend and then had some tea with my other friends that live close to me. Ou and I bought myself a cotton candy machine :D 

Last night I started to remember things from my life and I could say that I can see God on it and i'd like to say that my life is a testimony of God.

I believe in God of the Bible, I believe in Jesus Christ, I believe that Jesus is the Son of God and that He has died for me and for you, whether you believe it or not. That is the core of my life.

All the things that I've seen and went trough has brought me to this point I'm now. I'm 30, I'm single, I have travelled a lot, I'm a student, I have friends all over the place. And I can say that I am happy. 

There is so many things that fit in 30 years I can't even remember

• I have lived around 7 years abroad
• I have travelled in many countries (Israel, France, Sweden, Lebanon, Norway, U.S.A., Russia, Germany, Spain, Estonia, Italy, Switzerland, Netherlands, Belgium, Luxembourg, Liechtenstein.....and so on)
• I have studied around 16 years of my life
• I have been bullied in school and I survived
• I've lived in at least 17 addresses that I can calculate
• I have learned languages (I will survive level :P )
• I've been in two Bible schools ( Finland - Iso Kirja and Norway - Jesus Revolution/ TBBMI)
• I graduated as a cook in 2006 and been working since (before I came back to school)
• I have worked for 10 years
• I have my awesome siblings and parents that are together
• I still have dreams for the future 
• I have danced in many places since I was a child 
• I have been teaching dance (hiphop) [one of my childhood dreams]
• I have had two boyfriends ( last one 10 years ago) 
• I have fallen in like and broken my heart many many many times
• I have colored my hair in what ever colors
• I have now studied almost 2 years in University of Applied Sciences for Bachelor of Hospitality Management (still 1,5 years to go)
• I have met so many people, some of them have stayed and some of them have gone away
• I have laughed, cried, gotten angry, felt all the feels
• I have questioned everything and all
• I have had disappointments and broken dreams
• I have had eating disorder and I have cut myself
• I have lived a life and will continue till the day my Heavenly Father will take me home

I have lived in many places and I don't have home anywhere but I can bee home where ever I am. 

I'm a sister, daughter, sister-in-law, soon to be aunt, friend, enemy (to some maybe), I'm a woman.

I'm negative optimist, positive pessimist and realistic dreamer.

I'm a disciple of Jesus, child of God, loved, unique..... Psalm 139  

I want to be person that people can talk and ask. I want to be transparent. 
I know where I stand and with who I'm standing. 
This is a good base to continue, it is not the end to be 30 it is just the beginning.

I don't know how often I'm going to write here....maybe sometimes. Maybe this is just writing thoughts down for the future. :) (and maybe I won't write every time in English)