It comes in 2s

Life in happening

2 years ago I got a message that I was accepted to my current school. It made me think if it was the right thing to do and if I really wanted to study after many years of work.

Now it is 2 years from the time when I first came to see this apartment with my friend.  I have lived here for 2 years and I have had 2 flatmates.

In January it comes 2 years since I started my school.  It has been interesting to learn things from my field and also learn things of myself.

Luckily I have gotten more that 2 friends during this time :D Great friends and I have been able to have fun, joke, cry, cause drama, be part of drama, sing after 10 years, meet some awesome kids that I will miss.

I say many times to people that I don't miss people. and I don't in a way. BUT I feel sad to leave people I love and not know when I'll see them again. [(I'm bad keeping contact) and as my friends know by now...I don't like people ;) I love them.]

2 days ago I got a message that I was accepted for exchange in Scotland. I started to think if it is really something I want to do....totally yeah! But it comes with changes.

In exactly 2 months I will start school in Inverness. Crazy!

I couldn't have planned my life this well.

I planned it differently, (18yo married, 25yo at least 3 kids, and so on) and well...it didn't go like that. AND in the end I am thankful for it. I know God knows best. When I chose to give my life to Him it has been an adventure. Not maybe easy not without tears, I have fought back and surrendered in the end.

I couldn't have even dreamed of all the things I have gotten into and countries I've visited and people I've met. And it just goes and continues.

God promised me 7 years ago that I will see mountains and seas, I will meet people from different nations and that has been true. Sometimes without even trying. :D

But yeah...I have to start packing soon. I have less than a month time before my work begins (that is a blessing as well! I don't take it for granted. As a student your budget isn't really overflowing, but never have I been in need)

In the end I want to add a link to a song that I have been listening to for few months now since I found it from Youtube.

Aaron Cole feat Toby Mac-  *Right on time*

And because it comes in 2s here is an other song too that I love :D

We are the Messengers - *Magnify*


-Sini

I am 30

WOW I need to really learn a new number. Writing 20 something was still ok, but three and zero...30.

I think this is again that kind of point when you (me) start to think back in life and think what have I done with my life. I had my first age crisis ten years ago when I turned 20 and my so called boyfriend had just left me before my birthday. I was thinking that  the ten years from 10 to 20 had gone so fast and that I haven't got anything done. And if the next ten years (20->30) would go as fast and I still wouldn't have got anything done. 

0-18 school
18-28 work, travel, work
28-30 school, travel, school
30- adventure

Well, now I'm at that point. 

I had my party already in end of August, when the weather was nice and I had more time to organise things. Today (16.11.2017) I slept long, watched youtube, went eat with my friend and then had some tea with my other friends that live close to me. Ou and I bought myself a cotton candy machine :D 

Last night I started to remember things from my life and I could say that I can see God on it and i'd like to say that my life is a testimony of God.

I believe in God of the Bible, I believe in Jesus Christ, I believe that Jesus is the Son of God and that He has died for me and for you, whether you believe it or not. That is the core of my life.

All the things that I've seen and went trough has brought me to this point I'm now. I'm 30, I'm single, I have travelled a lot, I'm a student, I have friends all over the place. And I can say that I am happy. 

There is so many things that fit in 30 years I can't even remember

• I have lived around 7 years abroad
• I have travelled in many countries (Israel, France, Sweden, Lebanon, Norway, U.S.A., Russia, Germany, Spain, Estonia, Italy, Switzerland, Netherlands, Belgium, Luxembourg, Liechtenstein.....and so on)
• I have studied around 16 years of my life
• I have been bullied in school and I survived
• I've lived in at least 17 addresses that I can calculate
• I have learned languages (I will survive level :P )
• I've been in two Bible schools ( Finland - Iso Kirja and Norway - Jesus Revolution/ TBBMI)
• I graduated as a cook in 2006 and been working since (before I came back to school)
• I have worked for 10 years
• I have my awesome siblings and parents that are together
• I still have dreams for the future 
• I have danced in many places since I was a child 
• I have been teaching dance (hiphop) [one of my childhood dreams]
• I have had two boyfriends ( last one 10 years ago) 
• I have fallen in like and broken my heart many many many times
• I have colored my hair in what ever colors
• I have now studied almost 2 years in University of Applied Sciences for Bachelor of Hospitality Management (still 1,5 years to go)
• I have met so many people, some of them have stayed and some of them have gone away
• I have laughed, cried, gotten angry, felt all the feels
• I have questioned everything and all
• I have had disappointments and broken dreams
• I have had eating disorder and I have cut myself
• I have lived a life and will continue till the day my Heavenly Father will take me home

I have lived in many places and I don't have home anywhere but I can bee home where ever I am. 

I'm a sister, daughter, sister-in-law, soon to be aunt, friend, enemy (to some maybe), I'm a woman.

I'm negative optimist, positive pessimist and realistic dreamer.

I'm a disciple of Jesus, child of God, loved, unique..... Psalm 139  

I want to be person that people can talk and ask. I want to be transparent. 
I know where I stand and with who I'm standing. 
This is a good base to continue, it is not the end to be 30 it is just the beginning.

I don't know how often I'm going to write here....maybe sometimes. Maybe this is just writing thoughts down for the future. :) (and maybe I won't write every time in English)